The Week of Orgasmic Relevations

Let me start off by the 5th of March..

During that day, the boys at work asked to go sheesha at night which i had to decline, i had to pick up the car after work and i dont have anymore cash that i can spare to go out.I somehow knew they wanted me to pick em up and den everyone goes, i didnt want to be the "chauffeur" knowingly they knew i rented a car. Well anyways i picked up the car and went home. Later on at night i went to carls jr to have supper wit my bestie. Talk cock as usual, WE DIDNT WANT TO FEEL THE HYPE JUST YET. haha.

Saturday came,i didnt wanna say one of my frens bubbled but it cant be helped , shit happens and it was the day we kinda anticipated to come. In the end it was me and just another friend that went, i think practically the whole of northern,southern,eastern part of singapore.We did a mini photoshoot and etc. Oh yes night came and all my thoughts began stirring and whatever that you can say THINKING. YES I CANT HELP IT, PARAMORE IS COMIN THE NEXT DAY AND I JUST CANT HELP BEING HELPLESSLY HOPELESS HYPED UP. The feeling was sensuous trust me. I went home to rest for the next day..ended up i had quite a difficulty sleepin coz of the "adraenaline rush". HAHA.

Well the morning of 7th March came and i stared at the ticket for like the whole morning. I JUST DONT KNOW WHY. Kept on staring at the ticket saying things like, my fuckin god, i've waited from DECEMBER since i bought the ticket and the day has finally come. It was like goin to a pilgrimage or something, no im not mocking myself but really it kinda felt like that. I tried to pick nice clothes but alas, i decided to just FUCK IT, wear abit slack since im gonna sweat my bawls off. Picked up my bestie with her friend at abt 6pm and OFF WE GO TO THE INDOOR STADIUM. 2 FUCKING HOURS BEFORE THE LIGHTS GO OFF. On our way there, the song "The only exception" played on the radio and we sang from start to end LOL. Needless to say the hype was alreay there without us realising it. At the indoor stadium...the queue was..FUCKING LONG. I was like sigh-ing during the queue,"I wanna see hayley upclose dammit..at this rate we're gonna be so far back". Went to buy a couple of drinks while queueing till my friend called saying the standing pen was...HALF FILLED. SIAN.COM ! *shits in my pants*

The queue moved and before we know it, we were inside the damned INDOOR STADIUM. I RAN TOWARDS SOMETHING FOR THE FIRST FUCKING TIME IN MY LIFE LOL. Ok exaggeration. I mean like i wont run if the bus is like 20m away or whatever. I dont like to rush...BUT I RAN ON THAT DAY HAHAHAHAHA. Monochrome was up playin till the stadium was filled up........

THEN THEY CAME !

I ALMOST JIZZ IN MY PANTS !

nO JOKE !

THERE SHE WAS RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME ! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! gotta luv the leopard skin pants haha.

Before we know it, Ignorance was playin and everyone scrimped for every inch of space they can get closer to the stage. Here's how the situation looked like,I had no space to put my hands down,i only had space to JUMP. Yes thats how small the space is. Nevertheless i didnt care, i wanted to enjoy my fucking self. I sang to every song they played, well i shouted my ass off to every song except for 2 songs. LOL. I screamed like a little girl that got her barbie doll for the first time. Fuck ! I felt kinda bad using my friend's shoulders as a leverage to jump abit higher...dont know if she felt like i was pushing her down but....oh well LOL. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK THEN THEY PLAYED PRESSURE I WAS LIKE OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG FUCK MY SWEATING HAIRY ASS PLZZ !! WOOHOOOO !! fuck man...I was drenched in sweat, not only my top but my pants,boxers and FEET. Oh man..i couldnt even think of anything then happy, lyrics spout out of my mouth like as though its on auto-pilot. THE BEST MOMENT FOR ME HAS TO BE, WHEN SHE FUCKING SPITS WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ! i dont know..it kinda turned me on whenever she spits..HAHAHAHAHA.

Then it came to the last song,Brick by boring brick.i was expecting it to tbe the last song. Youtube works wonders ppl, haha. the moment it played i went hysterical..shoutin n jumpin, i shoulda drank redbull, REDBULL gives u WINGS !

After all that, lights went on and i realised, i never sweat this fucking much for a very long long long time. Shoes, cigarettes and even a t shirt was on the floor. HAHAHAHA all for jolly good fun ! After we got to the car to go back, i was still grinning from side to side knowing i spent a hundred bucks to probably the best night i can ever have in many years to come. I waited for a few yrs and i finally got to see a band/artist that i really really liked. Fuck dragonforce , fuck BEP , fuck Nightwish, fuck 50 cents, fuck whichever artist that i listed as my favourite, Nothing can replace my PARAMORE night. I released everything i held inside my head and heart out on the night where everything just went boom boom bass, it was like drinking and gettin wasted.

No words can ever describe my 7th March for it was a night that even Shakespeare would tell his son, i jizzed in my pants and i didnt regret it.

Thank you bestie and bestie's bestie.

Thanks Paramore,

u made me feel a brand new me. Music is an expression and it will always be no matter what type of genre.

=)

Now then...

For the past 2 weeks..

there were 3 songs on my playlist that i kept repeating.It just makes my day..

luv it when one of the songs,when the part goes,

"Black out tendencies , forget about the future."

Why ? lol...too many things goin on and sad to say im too lazy to think about it. What is makin me wonder is that...

how..
am...
i..
gonna..
try...
to..
mix..
a kesha tik tok fred falke mix..
and..
Tiesto's I will be here..
I CANT BRIDGE IT NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY..
damnit..............................................


ill just keep tryin i suppose..haha. Stupid bonus just makes the pacemaker abit more far-fetched. Sigh

Signing off with my fave track of the month, DEFINITELY BETTER THAN ADAGIO FOR STRINGS !

food for thought

A rainy day for a helpless fool,

he stands in the corner of the room,

shivering in fright when everything is all gloom,

the dreams turn into nightmares,

and the hopes to see a sunny day,

is nothing but mere self-pity..

the sunset

Why such a topic ?

I just realised today that some things are really...just cant be helped.I dont know why am i feeling so bad for,like something is weighing me down and theres nothing i can do about it. Just cant put my fave motto in play. I have this feeling of, i made someone pissed, which i dont know if i did and i dont even know fucking why. Why har ? Maybe its just me but i cant really dont give a shit. Then i get this feeling that why am i tryin so hard for ? I DONT KNOW WHY LEH ! Stupid random feeling or im just feelin it subconciously.

EH WHY LAAA ! WHY THE FUCK AM I FEELIN THIS SHIT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK THIS
FUCK WHATEVER THE SHIT THATS COMING
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK !

Anyway...went out wit my friend, i didnt know how to put it across to him but i just be frank with him regarding his flaw. Kinda glad that he took it calmly,unlike someone heh ! Bought 2 anklets and a brown leather bracelet, sick of black man lol !
Why anklet ? GOIN BACK VINTAGEEEEEE ! hahahaha. ok la here's the load of it.

Here's my definition of why ;
Each anklet represents someone that made an impact in the course of recent years. By the color they pick(which i asked them to pick what they like), the direct translation would be, their opinions and interests matters to me.Placing em on my ankle would mean that they walk side by side with me until....i dont know when.

The confidence club,
i really need to put it in play...like soon..

Smashin 2010 !

The atmosphere is still ringin in my head man !

espescially when im hearin this song


For 3 years running, i went with a good friend of mine. HAHAHAHAHAHA, i duno for some reason it always happens with him. Its like , "dok, new yr eve mcm last yr pe ? " AND IT HAPPENS LOL. I couldnt really control myself yesterday coz it was like, 2 days BACK TO BACK and ffs its CHIVASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. I sure as hell enjoyed my tym though. If i puked yesterday, it'd be the TOTALLY WASTED new yr eve, hahaha. Puke or never puke i dont give a shit coz it was really a smashin gd party when all your close friends are with ya enjoyin their tym too =D

It's also the day that i realise, that i actually do have feelings for someone. It's not that im not aware, i do but i just dont want it to go more than just good friends. Maybe what she says is right, there is no such thing as a platonic friendship coz ur bound to like that someone. I didnt know it was kinda strong.

To finish it off...i finally saw MY FRIEND GETTIN ALL TIPSY BEFORE ME HAHAHAHAHA !
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

oh ~~ oh ~~~ oh ~~ oh ~~~ OOOooOHHhhhhh~~
Caught in a bad romance ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

MY 2010 YEAR WILL BE THE YEAR THAT I CHURN OUT MY SHITZZZ !

A day i will never forget..

I wish i chose a different path of life, i mean literally yes i wished i did..

All this time, ever since the day that i got that text which was delivered from my sis..alot of things have changed. I don't know if its good or bad, i'd rather not know simply because i just don't wanna see how much i've "fallen" in a way. I'm not complaining because in a way i'm also glad that it happened or else i wouldn't have met people that mattered to me now. What just bothers me is just the fact that i haven't really gotten over that particular someone. She was someone really special. Even though it's been 7 years, the feelings are still there and sometimes i wish that..or rather i tink its best to say it this way, "how i long for that period of time to be at this present day".

Call me weak , call me whatever..i tink when someone was really special to you, no matter how hard you try, the memories will just flash from time to time. I won't lie to myself sayin i've gotten over her.

26th December 2002 is a day i will never forget. I guess its a day telling me to think twice before you decide on your course of actions. For me, it made me lose someone i hold dear...its my one and only regret..

A New Leash

WOW.
its been like..2 whole mths i didnt update this SHIT. Well just been rather busy with shit..laziness was a factor to the lack of updates..well anyway...got a new job, tho its NOT what i signed up for..its kinda FUN in a way..OH GOD I JUST CANT WAIT TO SHOP MY ASS OFF WHEN THE $$ starts ROLLING IN WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! got my wish list all ready..just need a LIL bit more time..first thing im gonna go do is GET DRUNK HAHAHAHAHAAH. fuck man its been awhile..chivas here i come baby =D